Changing

My lifestyle is switching all of sudden just for you. Never thought of i will give up everything in life just for you but now you are my everything. Even have to go thru the pain everyday but i am willing to do so, if you are not making me feel sick on the day i am worrying. I worry you won't have enough nutrition, i worr you are not comfortable inside me, i am extremely worry that you are giving up on me and your daddy.

I have been to the hospital for numurous times, just to make sure you are alright. I know i could be over reacted but tell me which mummy doesn't? especially know that you are not so stable. Just to be strong for another few more months then we all will be joyful. Both of your grandparents are expecting you and worrying about you, there are making sure that you have more than enough nutrient and make sure mummy have enough rest so that you can growth safely. Most of your mummy friends sending their regards and pray for you and mummy. See...everyone is loving you, there are care about you so much. Make sure you give them a big smiling face when you are here with us. Never the less, your daddy...he is talking to you everynight eventhough just a few mins from now but he cares. He is taking good care of you and mummy, when mummy or perhaps you feel like having caesar salad, yes he took us there, when we feel like instant noodles, yes he mades us maggi mee with sausages and egg..yummm...even not so healthy. He does laundry for mummy and cleaning up the room, driving mummy to work and make sure mommy don't take chilis and most of time controlling my consumption just because he cares of you. No chilis no spice kid. Nice dad huh!! so don't give up!!

Not sure if i am making a good choice or a bad one for you. I am planning to deliver you outside the country, i wanna give you a better environment and better future. To be silly, I actually have thought about human right, you should have you own right to choose you own citizenship but think about it none of us have when we are a baby, not until you are independent. So i set for you for the best..A lot of people is against my decision due to your stability and worrying that no one will taking care of us when you are born, however it is about planning whether you wanna make it happen or not. What i need is support, this is really what i want and i am determine. If someone trying to stop me from this, i think the relationship and future will be urgly which is not what i want. I have be dreaming that i will see my kid growth up here with the family and friends, and when the kid growth older then we are aboard and i will be there cooking and taking good care of them untill they need me no more. This is what i see now, of coz i know that thing can be changed due to certain circumstances but everyone have their own right to have dream and making it come true.